1 LOVE : The magic and feeling is back this summer...

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Join JnB Team as it celebrates its 1st Anniversary...

1 LOVE : The magic and feeling is back this summer!
Date : 2nd April 2005 Saturday
Venue : Astoria Plaza Ortigas
Time : 2.20pm - 6.00pm
Theme : Hawaiian Attire is a PLUS but not a MUST :)

Ticket Distribution : (Philippines)
March 18, 2005 Sat 3pm Megamall, Pasig City
March 18, 2005 Sat 3pm Glorietta, Makati City

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from Kulas ...

Yes, ONE LOVE is ALL WE NEED...

"One love for the mothers pride
One love for the times we cried
One love gotta stay alive.... Oh WE will survive

One love for the city streets
One love for the hip hop beats
One love oh I do believe
ONE LOVE IS ALL WE NEED! "

Yahoo!
The HEAT is ON!
JNB - ONE FOREVER LOVE!!!

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Thanks to Teesa on 30th March.

People’s Tonight
News About JnB 1st Anniversary by Nitz Miralles

(English Translation)
Congratulations to the JnB Team (Jerry Yan and Barbie Xu) who will be having their 1st Anniversary on April 2 at Astoria Plaza, Pasig City.

They will celebrate their anniversary in a Hawaiin Motif Party with a theme “1 Love: The Magic and Feeling is back! Everybody is advised to come in their best Hawaiian costume.

To Guinevere, thanks for inviting us and we’ll do our best to attend. For sure this will be fun since we saw that so many have already confirmed to attend.

There’s a limited souvenir items for the first 60 ticket holders, so, let’s go.

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from Cutie Dear on 31st March.

cutiemimiluv (8:02:26 PM): hello dear, wishin u great moments too. tc
cutiemimiluv (8:02:26 PM): ow its on sat already i hope it would be a blast....def a blast isnt it? hehe
cutiemimiluv (8:02:26 PM): take care dear till next. bye2.

suwanie (8:02:44 PM): heloo my dear
suwanie (8:02:54 PM): yup gosh i wish to be there on sat dear !
suwanie (8:02:58 PM): oh wait for me kay
suwanie (8:03:13 PM): hehe i wanna be in registration counter like last time

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Meet such lovely and wonderful JnB Sisters and find more about the Anniv, JnB World etc in http://jerryandbarbie.cjb.net

where i met very kind,amazing and pretty friends, or shall i call it as sisters ! Love all of you !

Usah Ragui Keupayaan Diri Sendiri…

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Oleh : Tinta 20-an, Veena Rusli


Dengan gelora di lautan yang sukar diramal amukannya, tempat paling selamat bagi sebuah kapal pastinya di pelabuhan. Di situ, suasana serba tenang dan sudah tentu tiada badai datang memukul serta tiada juga karang mengancam laluan.

Begitupun, kapal bukan dicipta sekadar untuk berlabuh di perhentian sambil sesekali menjadi persinggahan sang camar. Kegagahannya adalah untuk melayari samudera dan si nakhoda sewajarnya bersedia menempuh apa juga kemungkinan, baik taufan mengganas mahupun ombak menggila. Ia satu kemestian.

Sama juga halnya dengan kita. Tanpa mengira sama ada kapal atau manusia, persamaannya ialah kesanggupan menanggung risiko terhadap sebarang tindakan, sekalipun ada kalanya kata muktamad itu bagai ditentang seluruh isi buana.

Apabila manusia mempunyai hak membuat keputusan, seharusnyalah kita terdorong melakukan kesilapan tanpa disengajakan. Dan, apabila itu berlaku, kita juga wajar diberi kemaafan kerana kesempurnaan tidak pernah menjadi milik diri.

Tanpa gangguan, segalanya mungkin tidak sesukar mana. Namun sebaik prasangka menguasai keadaan, sudah pasti ada hati yang hancur luluh gara-gara silap faham dan seterusnya terpaterilah satu lagi episod duka dalam hidup.

Harus diakui, ada ketikanya semua itu membuatkan kita malas melayan karenah manusia keliling yang seolah-olah mengharapkan hanya kemahuan mereka perlu dipenuhi sedangkan apa yang tersirat dihati kita tidak punya tempat untuk disuarakan, jauh sekali difahami.

Dalam banyak keadaan, himpitan sedemikian sering melahirkan kita yang baru-lazimnya kita yang tidak mahu lagi terlalu memikirkan perihal menjaga hati perasaan orang lain semata-mata kerana apa yang lebih utama ialah belaian jiwa sendiri.

Di akhirnya, kitalah nakhoda yang mendapat kepuasan selepas pertarungan menentang cabaran di lautan. Mungkin ada sedikit robek di layar, mungkin tiang patah dipanah petir, mungkin dinding calar terlanggar karang, namun semua itu boleh diperbetulkan.

Benar, ia mengambil masa untuk kembali seperti asal berdasarkan pengalaman, keadaan biasanya tidak mungkin terzahir penuh seperti sebelumnya - cuma lebih baik, Insya-Allah.

Dalam jangka masa panjang, segala kepincangan itu adalah pahatan pengajaran yang amat tinggi nilainya untuk dijadikan bekalan kembara seterusnya. Tidak mengapa jika penghuni dunia tidak menyedari ketabahan yang dimiliki, itu tidak penting.

Apa yang lebih utama ialah kita menyedari keupayaan diri untuk bangkit merempuh arus kehidupan, sekalipun bekalannya cuma keyakinan dan ketawakalan serta tawajuh kepada Tuhan.

Saya kira, kita tidak perlu kerap meminta maaf, terutama terhadap apa yang tidak kita lakukan. Jangan biarkan sikap merendah diri dicelarukan dengan ketakutan hingga menghilangkan rasa hormat terhadap diri sendiri.

Pelayaran bahtera sering mencabar nakhoda untuk mencari garis memisahkan kaki langit dengan lautan.

Pejalanan hidup pula mengajak kita memburu batasan yang membezakan di antara mimpi dengan kenyataan.

Dalam kehidupan, segalanya perlu ada sempadan.

ALL SHOOK UP!

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SMS from Jing/Guinevere in Manila evening of 30th.

Wanie,im realy bz at work.I am longing 2 txt u n ladd.R u ok der? No more aftrshock? I hope all jnb sistrs alright.

SMS from Ladd in Java Island early morning of 30th.

Waalaikumsalam dr Wanie n Mauve aside d victims we who live in Java Island are very fine not affected a bit even by d vibration but d condition of d ppl n Nias are very badeven worst not confirmed yet d # of d victims thanx somuch 4 d concern hope d disasterswill stop n dont get more victims amin

SMS to Ladd midnite of 29th.

Askum ladd,how r u der?Me n mauve are hoping u r doin fine after d earthquake dis mornin,mauve is in bangkok,Hows d condition of d ppl in d affected island?

SMS from Fe mins after the reply.

Hi dear!Thnk God ur ok.Am fine hr n bkok,didnt feel anything ths time.Hope we cn hearfrm Ladd tho.

SMS from Fe in Bangkok on 29th March 2005.

Wanie,hi.Hope u r ok evn wd th earthquake last nite.Heard tht it ws rly strong n KL.hope u cn txt bak.

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DEVASTATION: An aerial view of the earthquake-hit area of Nias island yesterday. Tremors from the undersea quake west of Sumatra, which measured 8.7 on the Ritcher scale, were felt along the west coast of Malaysia. — AFP Picture

ALL SHOOK UP!
Massive earthquake off Sumatra rattles Malaysia
NST Reporters.
KUALA LUMPUR, Mar 28:

A powerful earthquake hit tsunami-devastated Sumatra early this morning, causing panic in peninsular Malaysia, where the effects of the tremor shook buildings from Malacca to Alor Star, sending people fleeing to higher ground in search of safety. Memories of the Dec 26 tsunami which claimed more than 270,000 lives — including 68 in Penang, Kedah and Perak — sent jitters through the population, but there were no early reports of casualties, injuries or property damage.

However, alerts on television, including foreign networks, led to jammed phone lines as anxious Malaysians called friends and relatives to alert them to the tremors.

Tsunami warnings were issued throughout the country, with the Meteorological Services Department ordering those in coastal areas of Penang, Langkawi, Perlis, Kedah and Perak to evacuate to higher ground.

As three aftershocks followed in quick succession, the authorities warned that tsunamis could be expected within two to three hours of the quake, which occurred at 12.09am Malaysian time and registered a hefty 8.7 on the Richter Scale.

The quake was epicentred at 2.03N, 97.01E, west of Sumatra island and 535km from here.

more news on NST Online.

NST

Precious Moment

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ceazar_db (3/29/2003 10:43:12 AM): EVERY MOMENT IS PRECIOUS

To realize the value of ONE YEAR
Ask a student who has failed his exam.

To realize the value of ONE MONTH
Ask a mother who has given birth to a pre-mature baby.

To realize the value of ONE WEEK
Ask an editor of a weekly.

To realize the value of ONE DAY
Ask a daily wage labor.

To realize the value of ONE HOUR
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize the value of ONE MINUTE
Ask a person who has missed the train.

To realize the value of ONE SECOND
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize the value of ONE MILLI-SECOND
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in Olympics.

dear Capricorn

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Delve / look into deep into your creative nature, dear Capricorn. Break loose from your tether/tie/join and escape up into the clouds for a while. Gain a greater perspective on your situation and you will find that things are much less daunting/intimidating/scary than you originally thought. Don't get so caught up with figuring out how something is going to get done. Just concentrate on what it is exactly that you want. The details will work out by themselves.

Through The Rain

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Through The Rain ~ Mariah Carey
Charmbracelet
December 2002.

When you get caught in the rain
With nowhere to run
When you’re distraught
And in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can’t find your way home
You can get there alone, it’s ok
Once you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

(Vocal improvisation)

And if you keep falling down
Don’t you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound
So keep pressing on steadfastly
And you’ll find what you need to prevail
Once you say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don’t be afraid
There’s nothing you can’t face
And should they tell you
You’ll never pull through
Don’t hesitate
Stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again
On my own and I know
That I’m strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain
Can stand up once again
And I'll live one more day, and I
I can make it through the rain
Oh yes you can
You’re gonna make it through the rain

Visit Mariah Carey's Official Website

here

Noah's Ark

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Everything I need to know about life, I learned from Noah's Ark...

One : Don't miss the boat.

Two : Remember that we are all in the same boat.

Three : Plan ahead. It wasn't raining when Noah built the Ark.

Four : Stay fit. When you're 600 years old, someone may ask you to do something really big.

Five : Don't listen to critics; just get on with the job that needs to be done.

Six : Build your future on high ground.

Seven : For safety's sake, travel in pairs.

Eight : Speed isn't always an advantage. The snails were on board with the cheetahs.

Nine : When you're stressed, float a while.

Ten : Remember, the Ark was built by amateurs; the Titanic by professionals.

Eleven : No matter the storm, when you are with God, there's always a rainbow waiting.

NOW, wasn't that nice? Pass it along and make someone else smile, too.

Last Weekend

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20th March 2005

SMS from K Jel,
" Insya-Allah, ahad ni (20th Mac) ada buat Bday party utk Angah. Dijemput datang ye !"

SMS from Su-Angah,
" oh Insya-Allah, Su datang"

Such a wonderful day to spend with noisy yet happy nieces and nephews. Then, cecepat balik utk kejar komuter bcoz dah ada date ngan Takuya Kimura kol 6pm at 8tv. oh oh oh Pride such a brilliant Japanese Series ! wadduuhhh Halu & Aki memang best best !

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19th March 2005

Encik : "Insya-Allah, saya (Encik) datang sabtu ni. emmmm sampai pagi kot"

Saya : " oh flight kuching ahad kan ?"

Encik : "ahad pagi 11.55"

Saya : " Okie"

Encik : " Boleh temankan, nak beli buku utk kursus ada 2-3 buah kena cari.

Saya : " Sure" (wahhh cant believe it, sounds so convincing! haha)

okies, that was how it went thru. accompanied Mr Encik to buy few books in MPH.

then during lunch ...

Saya : " well well no more waiting laa ... huh ! "

Encik : " won't make you wait"

Then Mr Encik just smiled.

Give

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Date: Wed, 16 Mar 2005 00:44:12 -0800 (PST)
From: libao jheng libaojheng@yahoo.com

There was a time in my life I became afraid to fall in love. Because every time I fell in love, I got hurt. I thought maybe that's why it's called fallin in love. I would give my all, loving deeply and wholeheartedly. It would be a truly emotional, extremely euphoric experience. I would be dreaming about the object of my affection all day and all night, imagining good times together, thinking of what I can do or buy for him to show how much I care. I would feel light as a feather, energized and excited, literally blooming with the joy I feel inside. Then somehow things would go wrong and my whole world would crash. Disappointment. Resentment. Anger. Pain. Why? Can we not love without feeling pain? Is it really a price to pay for all the happiness we feel when we are in love? Should we just accept that because we love, we risk getting hurt? It was only after many years of soul-searching and reading inspirational writings that I realized that we could love without getting hurt. Only recently did I understand what unconditional love is all about. Love is one of the most powerful forces in the universe. It is the fire that burns inside, the essence of being. Love is the source of all our comfort and contentment. It is a precious gift that defines our purpose in life. If we keep in mind that we can indeed preserve its true meaning, we can love to the fullest and be happy the rest of our lives. Accept that other people express love differently.

How do you express love? She says, I love you three times a day, kiss and embrace as often as she can, she never forgets anniversaries, she always makes his favorite dishes. How does he express his love? He rarely says I love you, he seldom kisses her, he forgets her birthday, and he doesn't know how to cook. But he worked overtime, walks the dog, takes out the garbage, takes her to movies, and calls her honey. He probably loves her more than you can imagine, he just shows it differently; if you can accept that then you will have a healthier perspective of your relationship. Derive happiness from giving love. When you love, do it because you want to. There is an indescribable joy in loving. Just give it. And cherish satisfaction in having given someone something of yourself. It's like giving a gift. Whether it is appreciated or not, find joy in simply giving. Love without expecting anything in return.

This is where pain comes in...When you demand something in return for the love you give. You are setting yourself up for disappointment because love cannot always be reciprocal.

Love between two people can never be of the same intensity at the same time and place.

No matter how much your partner loves you, she will never be able to fill all your needs all the time. And you will be in the worst situation if you believe you should love only when you are sure to receive equal love in return. You will be waiting in misery forever. Love now. The past is gone and the future is just a dream. All of yesterdays aches and pains, as well as the loves and laughter, are mere memories. Let them go. Fantasies and worries are for a future that may never come. Don't dwell on them. Give now. Give love now. Do it now and enjoy it now. That is the secret of genuine contentment. Throw away those destructive habits. When you insist upon yourself what you always have to be in control, that you always have to be right, that others must always please you, you put yourself in a very tight spot.

Loving relationships are flexible, dynamic, and evolving. Leave room for change and interaction. Allow for new behavior and learning experiences. When we welcome these into our lives, we open ourselves to sharing more love and affection and less frustration and pain. Yes, you will say that unconditional love is easier said than done. I agree. Especially when we have always believed that love is give and take. But try believing that love is simply giving. And you will be surprised that a lot of it, even more, actually comes back to you. We can give without loving but we cant express love without giving.

In life, love is never planned nor does it happen for a reason. But when the love is real, it becomes your plan for life and your reason for living.

You can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved; the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride.

We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

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Pesan Omar

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Omar Al Khattab r.a pada suatu ketika menghantar tentera-tentera Islam untuk berjuang dan beliau telah memberikan satu peringatan kepada tentera-tentera Islam ketikaitu dan beliau berkata ...

Sebenarnya perkara yg lebih aku bimbang kepadamu bukan sangat musuh-musuh mu, musuh-musuh mu sehebat mana mereka sekalipun aku kurang bimbang tentang mereka. Mereka boleh datang dengan pedang, tombak dan perbagai senjata dan kelengkapan yg lain. Aku tak bimbang, yang aku bimbang sekali ialah tentang kamu sebab jika kamu lupa kepada Allah, kamu tidak bertakwa, kamu bergelumang dengan maksiat, kamu pasti akan kalah. Musuh kamu memang menentang kamu, menentang Islam, memang dikutuk oleh Allah tetapi andaikata kamu juga terjebak dengan perbuatan yang Allah benci, maka Allah juga tidak akan merestui kamu dan kamu pasti akan kalah.

berak butang

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Noorasmawati Salleh [nooras@telekom.com.my]

Hahahhahahahahah

nak gelak besar la nih.. ulallala..
siap leh pk nak simpan stools wat kenangan tuh.. ahahahahahhaha

yey!.. afiq berjaya menjadikan acik-acik raudhah nih, terpk akan kewujudan ‘cacing butang wane gold’.. hik hik..

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From: scarlet starlet [mailto:calx_88@yahoo.com]

laaa tertelan butang betul ker? hhehe semah kalau tahu yati pon blur cam wanie sure gelakkan yati nih hehe...igt kan mmg ade cacing butang....patutla pelik bila baca ayat hani yg last tuh --> simpan butang wat kenangan? tu yg pelik takkan bley simpan stool kots hishh blur nyer yatiiiiiii nih!!!

tapi yati senyap jela malas nak tanyer...hehe malunyer saye!

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From: Cik Puan Julieyana [mailto:myjulieyana@yahoo.com]

hehe.. klaka plak si wenie tanye butang tu kategori cacing ke tak? boleh bayang muka wanie terpinga2 dapat tahu ada cacing jenis butang.. hehe.. sowie wanie lame tak kacau awak ;)

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From: Noorasmawati Salleh [mailto:nooras@telekom.com.my]

Afiq telan butang baju la.. hoho..
ubat cacing tuh, memakse budak kecik tuh berak.. tuh yang kuar sume bende yang ada kat usus die.. termasuklah butang yang ditelan nye itu.. ohohoho
adalah tidak ia dikategorikan sebagai keluarga si cacing kerawit.. hehhe

p/s: sebuk plak jadik tukang jawab.. heheh

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From: Omrainee Omar [mailto:omrainee@telekom.com.my]

hhahaaa ! camne butang tu hani? kaler gold ek ? eh butang tu kategori family cacing gak ke ?

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From: hani ariff [mailto:hani2903@yahoo.co.uk]
Sent: Tuesday, March 15, 2005 8:11 PM
To: raudhah30@yahoogroups.com
Subject: RE: [raudhah30] rindu semua.. =)

hm.. ckp pasal stool & sembelit ni, teringat plak kat afiq kene cirit-birit ari tu... 2 bulan lepas teruk sgt, dkt 8 kali satu hari..dkt 3 -4 hari jugak la.. risau, bawak jumpe Dr, Dr bagi ubat cacing.... kot kot la.. budak2 ni kan suke pungut macam2 masuk mulut...

Dan-dan makan ubat cacing tu, esok malam, die berak butang... lepas tu terus ok berak die.. back to normal sekali sehari, terkejut jugak tgk berak kuwar butang.. memang butang tu cantik, wane gold2, besar, butang blause (bukan baju kemeja tu)..

Kitorang simpan butang tu untuk peringatan di hari tua.. hihih

ps: sori, email ni tade kene mengena dgn tips susu untuk bayi..

sekeping nota 2003

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Assalamualaikum,

Utk yg tersayang & diingati selalu;Ummi, Kak Na, Abg Mi, Ami’uuuddinn :) Ina & Along,

Dlm kotak ni Su ada sertakan :
1. Handbag (tu hadiah hari raya sebenarnya, awal takpe ye :)
2. 3 pasang baju utk Ami’uuuddinn ( 2 pasang baju lengan pendek & 1 pasang baju tdo)
3. Kamera Yashica (harga RM158, skali dgn 2 bateri & satu free filem)
4. Boleh try amik gambar terus he he hee…

Minta maaf bebanyak pd Ummi, Ina & Along sbb Su takde pape yg kirim, kecuali utk Ummi (duit RM100).

Itu sahaja dari Su. Semoga bergumbira.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY Ami’uuuddinn :)

Sayang Selalu,
SuWanie
31 Julai 2003.

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Tree . Leaf . Wind

Catcha Singapore - catcha.com.sg
Date: November 01 2003 - 02:47:27 PM Author: star
A very touching story that i read on the email...

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees.Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years. She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director.

When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for anhour or so.My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarrelled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know who the guy is. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school. I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her.When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like me, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right. Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him,
accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I
continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.




Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him. One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left. Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away. It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree.

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.

* from Huda Wed 12/3/2003 1:45 PM.

friendship is forever

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8th March 05.

libaojheng (9:57:14 AM): hi wanie!!
libaojheng (9:57:14 AM): cutie jst txtd me, she can't go online now maybe at arnd 6pm or later.
suwanie (9:57:23 AM): hello jheng !
suwanie (9:57:25 AM): oh sure sure
suwanie (9:58:06 AM): pls tell her that i'm gonna online later arnd 6pm, tell her that i miss her already hehe
libaojheng (10:03:44 AM): ei wanie she cnt online for d whole coz her shift is straight, maybe tom arnd 11am.
suwanie (10:07:43 AM): oh okie sure sure
suwanie (10:07:49 AM): thanks jing for the mesg
libaojheng (10:10:58 AM): cutie sed sori and she misses u also
suwanie (10:11:39 AM): its okay, just tell her to take care of herself and have plenty rest

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Date: Tue, 15 Feb 2005 00:51:47 From: "mi yu" <cutiemimiluv@yahoo.com>

Happy Hearts Day to you too dear...
Its really nice to hear that you enjoy ur work...i know ur a smart girl and could easily get it right,i have this HUGE faith in you... goodluck dear and ill be praying for its success.

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** If One Day... **

If one day you feel like crying...
Call me.
I don't promise that I will make you laugh,
But I can cry with you.

If one day you want to run away
Don't be afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stop...
But I can run with you.

If one day you don't want to listen to anyone...
Call me.
I promise to be there for you.
And I promise to be very quiet.

But if one day you call...
And there is no answer...
Come fast to see me.
Maybe I need you.

If I ever ignored you.
I'm Sorry...

If I ever made you feel bad or put you down.
I'm Sorry...

If I ever thought I was bigger or better than you.
I'm Sorry...

I Luv You...Don't ever forget that!
Through bad times and good,
I'll always be here for you.

I am Sorry...For everything wrong I've ever done.

I'm writing this because what if tomorrow never comes?

What if i never get to say good-bye or give you a BIG hug?

What if i never get to say I'm sorry or I love you?

Because what if tomorrow never comes?

I LOVE YOU !
FRIENDS ALWAYS.

*from yetie pruzz

Assalamualaikum ...

Salam Sejahtera & Salam Perkenalan buat semua ... :)

wahh at last ! finally ! maka ter wujudlah my very own blog hehe kinda weird for me and segan pon ada ... almaklumlah since semah si mama mirul she has been encouraging me to open up a blog so they all can have the updates, wait, what ? updates ?! geezzz suwanie doesn't know what to say my dear friends hehe ...

anyway, thanks for my beloved friends for always be with a simple yet 'complex' me. this is the sole reason i share with all of you my thoughts, stories, pictures, ups and downs ... i would love to say here that i dedicate this a simple blog of me to all of you.

" coz i'm always around you and i'll make you see how beautiful life is for you and me "

Rainbow ~ South Border

fallin out fallin in
nothings sure in this world no no
breaking down breaking in
never knowing what lies ahead
we can really never tell it all no no

say goodbye say hello
to a lover or friend sometimes we could never understand
why some things begin with just love
we can never have it all
no no no ohh

but oh, cant you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see how beautiful life is for you and me

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me there's a rainbow always after the rain

hittin high hittin low
win or lose you should go yeah yeah
getting warm getting cold
weather can be so good or bad
but baby this is life so dont get mad
no no no

coz ohhh
can't you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

life's full of challenges
not all the time we get what we want
but dont despair my dear
you'll take it each trial
and you'll make it through the storm
coz youre strong my faith in you is clear
so i say once again
this world's beautiful
let us celebrate life that is so beautiful
so beautiful...

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain.

*dedicated by cutie honey.