cupcakes ~ another angle

rasa macam tak caya dapat buat cupcakes ni. honestly frens, baking is truly a joy to me. such a relief and feel so satisfy if i can decorate to the best that i can do at the moment. mudah-mudahan dilimpahkan lagi kreativiti and skil, amin.

cupcakes ~ sister in law's engagement

well frens, even though dah share dekat fb, still nak share gak kat blog ... cupcakes that hasil usahasama kami (me & kak musz) for sister in law's engagement

how's today ?

alhamduLILLAH ... that's all i can say ...

so how's today frens ? pagi-pagi lagi kena update boss on the latest status of current projects. then continued with doing the slides for business case plus emailing the relevant parties. Ya Allah, up to 6pm, hubby was waiting at the lobby for already 40 minutes ! (sowwyyy hubby ;)

nothing much today. just think of updating my resume and CV ...

tadaaaaa... i'm back !

Assalamualaikum wrt.

haluuuuuuuuuuuu peeppsss ! frenssss !!! wow this is such a wonderful feeling to be back blogging !

last post was in 2009 ... lamanyaaaa ! insyaALLAH, from now on i will share updates on my thingy ~ life, work, books, cakes, cup cakes, food, travel ... anything that worth to be shared with others.

good nite & sweet dream ... :)

happy mother's day

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.

you've been tagged !

1. Copy badge "2008 cute's 3logger Award" di atas untuk diletakkn di blog anda.


oretttt

2. Link / n citer kan kembali siapa yang memberi award ini kpd anda.
Huda :) ~ sorry darling, giler lambat reply huhuu

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta / hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnya (anda di tag)

1. i love to eat hehehe hubby jangan marah tawww ! especially thai food ! tom yam and cheese cake ! yummyy owww and also my hubby special spaghetti bolognese recipe. siap ada meatballs kay :D

2. love to kemas-kemas rumah, and basuh pinggan. paling best bila tengok rumah kemas n teratur.

3. love to discuss or argue almost everything with darling hubby. itu lah kata jodoh kan kan. people say ~ get married with someone that you love to talk. i love my hubby !

4. love to read any articles, especially about parenthood and baby stuffs. definitely love to play around with our little adham akhtar.

5. love to travel. even though habis duit tapi hati sangat heppi :D ... moga diizinkan-Nya travel ke Perth.nak bawak hubby and adham tengok kangaroo *amin*

6. love to listen to any soft, pleasant, lite and easy music.

7. sometimes i impose strict disciplines and hard time towards myself. for example, i plan to basuh baju + masak + jemur baju + sapu lantai + iron baju dlm masa yg sama. then i got tension huhu... now i learn to just do yg termampu je. tak mo tension tension. tak best.

8. plan to exercise and join bebudak ni pi dance (latin or mix dances). nak kurus you !

9. best to have sometimes chit chat with precious frens. gossip + sembang over everything under the sun + makan-makan.

10. hopefully dapat belajar skill memasak from mak mertua. she is trully a wonderful cook. plan to kumpulkan semua resepi mak and then buat buku ~ resepi mak mertua saya

4) pilih 5 penerima award seterusnya n nyatakan di blog anda. (sorang je la ek)
safurah ~ visit her nice blog

5) jgn lupe melawat blog kawan anda yg telah di tag n menyatakan dia telah telah di tag.
of course !

adham's 1st playgym

wowww ! abah bought 3 things for adham ~ playgym, mobile (something which is hanging on his playpen ), and also teether... now adham has three teethers! at least adham leka sket main with buzz the spider & logan the lion.

coach poppy gallery white leather

my dream bag hue huew huewwwwww
thanks to crazycoach


~ Color : White Leather with Colorful Flower
~ Brass Hardware
~ Leather and Suede Poppy Flower on Front
~ 2 Exterior Side Pockets (with turn key lock closure)
~ 3 Interior Pockets (1 zippered with leather pull and 2 accessories pockets)
~ Approx. 12" (W) x 9" (H) x 4.5" (D)
~ Price: RM1,650

wahai anakku...

25 pesanan Luqmanul Hakim
Originated from : Mutiara Hati

01 - Hai anakku: ketahuilah, sesungguhnya dunia ini bagaikan lautan yang dalam, banyak manusia yang karam ke dalamnya. Bila engkau ingin selamat, agar jangan karam, layarilah lautan itu dengan SAMPAN yang bernama TAKWA, ISInya ialah IMAN dan LAYARnya adalah TAWAKKAL kepada ALLAH.

02 - Orang - orang yang sentiasa menyediakan dirinya untuk menerima nasihat, maka dirinya akan mendapat penjagaan dari ALLAH. Orang yang insaf dan sedar setalah menerima nasihat orang lain, dia akan sentiasa menerima kemuliaan dari ALLAH juga.

03 - Hai anakku; orang yang merasa dirinya hina dan rendah diri dalam beribadat dan taat kepada ALLAH, maka dia tawadduk kepada ALLAH, dia akan lebih dekat kepada ALLAH dan selalu berusaha menghindarkan maksiat kepada ALLAH.

04 - Hai anakku; seandainya ibubapamu marah kepadamu kerana kesilapan yang dilakukanmu, maka marahnya ibubapamu adalah bagaikan baja bagi tanam tanaman.

05 - Jauhkan dirimu dari berhutang, kerana sesungguhnya berhutang itu boleh menjadikan dirimu hina di waktu siang dan gelisah di waktu malam.

06 - Dan selalulah berharap kepada ALLAH tentang sesuatu yang menyebabkan untuk tidak menderhakai ALLAH. Takutlah kepada ALLAH dengan sebenar benar takut ( takwa ), tentulah engkau akan terlepas dari sifat berputus asa dari rahmat ALLAH.

07 - Hai anakku; seorang pendusta akan lekas hilang air mukanya kerana tidak dipercayai orang dan seorang yang telah rosak akhlaknya akan sentiasa banyak melamunkan hal hal yang tidak benar. Ketahuilah, memindahkan batu besar dari tempatnya semula itu lebih mudah daripada memberi pengertian kepada orang yang tidak mahu mengerti.

08 - Hai anakku; engkau telah merasakan betapa beratnya mengangkat batu besar dan besi yang amat berat, tetapi akan lebih lagi daripada semua itu, adalah bilamana engkau mempunyai tetangga (jiran) yang jahat.

09 - Hai anakku; janganlah engkau mengirimkan orang yang bodoh sebagai utusan. Maka bila tidak ada orang yang cerdik, sebaiknya dirimulah saja yang layak menjadi utusan.

10 - Jauhilah bersifat dusta, sebab dusta itu mudah dilakukan, bagaikan memakan daging burung, padahal sedikit sahaja berdusta itu telah memberikan akibat yang berbahaya.

11 - Hai anakku; bila engkau mempunyai dua pilihan, takziah orang mati atau hadir majlis perkahwinan, pilihlah untuk menziarahi orang mati, sebab ianya akan mengingatkanmu kepada kampung akhirat sedangkan menghadiri pesta perkahwinan hanya mengingatkan dirimu kepada kesenangan duniawi sahaja.

12 - Janganlah engkau makan sampai kenyang yang berlebihan, kerana sesungguhnya makan yang terlalu kenyang itu adalah lebih baiknya bila makanan itu diberikan kepada anjing sahaja.

13 - Hai anakku; janganlah engkau langsung menelan sahaja kerana manisnya barang dan janganlah langsung memuntahkan saja pahitnya sesuatu barang itu, kerana manis belum tentu menimbulkan kesegaran dan pahit itu belum tentu menimbulkan kesengsaraan.

14 - Makanlah makananmu bersama sama dengan orang orang yang takwa dan musyawarahlah urusanmu dengan para alim ulamak dengan cara meminta nasihat dari mereka.

15 - Hai anakku; bukanlah satu kebaikan namanya bilamana engkau selalu mencari ilmu tetapi engkau tidak pernah mengamalkannya. Hal itu tidak ubah bagaikan orang yang mencari kayu bakar, maka setelah banyak ia tidak mampu memikulnya, padahal ia masih mahu menambahkannya.

16 - Hai anakku; bilamana engkau mahu mencari kawan sejati, maka ujilah terlebih dahulu dengan berpura pura membuat dia marah. Bilamana dalam kemarahan itu dia masih berusaha menginsafkan kamu,maka bolehlah engkau mengambil dia sebagai kawan. Bila tidak demikian, maka berhati hatilah.

17 - Selalulah baik tutur kata dan halus budi bahasamu serta manis wajahmu, dengan demikian engkau akan disukai orang melebihi sukanya seseorang terhadap orang lain yang pernah memberikan barang yang berharga.

18 - Hai anakku; bila engkau berteman, tempatkanlah dirimu padanya sebagai orang yang tidak mengharapkan sesuatu daripadanya. Namun biarkanlah dia yang mengharapkan sesuatu darimu.

19 - Jadikanlah dirimu dalam segala tingkahlaku sebagai orang yang tidak ingin menerima pujian atau mengharap sanjungan orang lain kerana itu adalah sifat riya~ yang akan mendatangkan cela pada dirimu.

20 - Hai anakku; janganlah engkau condong kepada urusan dunia dan hatimu selalu disusahkan olah dunia saja kerana engkau diciptakan ALLAH bukanlah untuk dunia sahaja. Sesungguhnya tiada makhluk yang lebih hina daripada orang yang terpedaya dengan dunianya.

21 - Hai anakku; usahakanlah agar mulutmu jangan mengeluarkan kata kata yang busuk dan kotor serta kasar, kerana engkau akan lebih selamat bila berdiam diri. Kalau berbicara, usahakanlah agar bicaramu mendatangkan manfaat bagi orang lain.

22 - Hai anakku; janganlah engkau mudah ketawa kalau bukan kerana sesuatu yang menggelikan, janganlah engkau berjalan tanpa tujuan yang pasti, janganlah engkau bertanya sesuatu yang tidak ada guna bagimu, janganlah mensia siakan hartamu.

23 - Barang sesiapa yang penyayang tentu akan disayangi, sesiapa yang pendiam akan selamat daripada berkata yang mengandungi racun, dan sesiapa yang tidak dapat menahan lidahnya dari berkata kotor tentu akan menyesal.

24 - Hai anakku; bergaullah rapat dengan orang yang alim lagi berilmu. Perhatikanlah kata nasihatnya kerana sesungguhnya sejuklah hati ini mendengarkan nasihatnya, hiduplah hati ini dengan cahaya hikmah dari mutiara kata katanya bagaikan tanah yang subur lalu disirami air hujan.

25 - Hai anakku; ambillah harta dunia sekadar keperluanmu sahaja, dan nafkahkanlah yang selebihnya untuk bekalan akhiratmu. Jangan engkau tendang dunia ini ke keranjang atau bakul sampah kerana nanti engkau akan menjadi pengemis yang membuat beban orang lain. Sebaliknya janganlah engkau peluk dunia ini serta meneguk habis airnya kerana sesungguhnya yang engkau makan dan pakai itu adalah tanah belaka. Janganlah engkau bertemankan dengan orang yang bersifat talam dua muka, kelak akan membinasakan dirimu.

Happy 1st Anniversary

Happy 1st Anniversary :)

our simple celebration with our beloved and adorable son,
adham akhtar. semoga hidup kita sentiasa diberkati, dirahmati,
dimurahkan rezeki, senantiasa dalam perlindungan-Nya.
Wishing and praying for everlasting happiness.

to my everdearest hubby, abang i love you so much :)
i'm glad you're my husband !

UNGU - Tercipta Untukku

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Ku slalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu

amieruddin & adham

my sister; Omrina has such a lovely and wonderful son~Amieruddin. since Adham is born, amieruddin cukup heppi and ada je soklan2 cepu emas yg diajukan pada mama or abah nya related with baby adham...

otak@minda

mama, baby ni ada otak tak?

cacing

mama, dalam perut dia ada cacing tak?

balik kl

mama, dia (baby adham) ni pergi kl kejap je kan?bukan dia balik lama kan? nanti dia balik sini (kelate) balik kan?

nangis/kencing/berak

adham ni takde keje lain laa...asyik asyik nangis,berak berak jeeee

adham dah pandai gelak

abah, nak tau tak, adham kan dia dah pandai gelak pastu dah pandai cakap2. adik rasa adham suka la kat adik

bulat

abah, mama kan, dia panggil adham bulat. apa la mama ni, lucu la mama

kotak

mama, nanti kita masukkan baby dlm kotak pastu kita bawak balik boleh? su tak bagi? apa la su ni, lucu la

adham akhtar is a miracle

1. baru tau pregnant after 6 weeks preggy. it was on march 2008. one month lepas kawin hehe seblum tau tu ada instinct kuat yg kata...eiii aku ni pregnant kot kot. syukur alhamduLillah atas rezeki dapat baby :)

2. on 1st april 2008, ada unit restructuring and i was in new team under Enterprise & Goverment, Product Marketing. Captain is En Khaidhir.best team ever ! ngan geng2 yg best such as jaja@hajar, yat, shahima, ayin, dila, irma, huda, as, kam, farah naj, farhan, mun@ustaz rock and nik!pastu ada joshua yg lawak gile. kitorang satu unit pi lawan bowling and then pi family day kat FRIM Kepong. memang unit yg best ! En Khaidhir you're totally genius and wonderful leader! memang sepanjang pregnant happy, enjoy, gelak, makan2, seronottt je lepak kat ofis.

3. geng2 plak mostly new mommies. seronottt dgn diorang share tips on nak bersalin, breastfeeding, list nak beli brg2 baby (thanks huda!), nak jaga baby, baby sitter (thanks julie)

4. masa warded on 25/11/2008, hubby actually ada interview scholarship kat yayasan tm around pkul 2 ptg. then hubby call unit yayasan minta tukar session sebelah pagi. alhamduLillah dapat tukar sessi sebelah pagi. hubby cerita masa masuk bilik interview tu, panel bgtau "ooo ni yg nak jadik bapak orang ni " alhamduLillah hubby dapat scholarship.

5. perasaan lepas dapat baby...shahdu...sebak...syukur...dan rasa camni lah dulu mak aku dulu dok mengandung kan aku...moga-moga Allah anugerahkan rahmat, barakah dan keampunan utk arwah abah, arwah bapak, umi and mak.

6. last 5th January, mommy and papa pi klinik kat penang ni. kami tinggalkan adham ngan mak tok jap. bila kami balik, mak tok bgtau adham tidoq from pkul 11am sampaila kami balik. sempat la mak tok tumis bwg, jemuq baju etc. adham such a good boy!

7. dua tiga hari lepas mommy panas badan macam nak demam. sakit2 + sengal2 badan sampai nak dukung adham pun tak brapa larat. as if adham tau je mommy tak larat, adham tidoq je belah malam and only bangun nenen + tukar diaper je.

8. after almost one year menunggu, akhirnya kami dapat kunci umah baru masa dlm pantang. insya-Allah, takde aral melintang then pindah umah after chinese new year ni.

more pixs

adham with baju kunin...yg putih kat dahi tu bedak sejuk


adham & adhanie ~ anak cousin yana yg lahir 11 hari lepas adham.nama pon lebey kurang sama



adham lepas cukur rambut


majlis cukur rambut kat kelate


adham dlm bakul bulat tok mi


adham 8 days old

AlhamduLillah...selamat bersalin

adham with papa


adham 30 minutes selepas dilahirkan


AlhamduLillah... syukur ke hadrat Allah Taala krn selamat bersalin. ish nak cerita pengalaman bersalin memang le rasa cukup lah sorang baby. tapi bila tengok baby Adham yg semakin comei and bam bam tembam tu... next plan is moga2 dapat baby girl plak. bang, boley ye ;)

Adham Akhtar Bin Azran is born on 26/11/2008 at 1.52am. Baby weight is 3.55kg and it was normal delivery. mula2 tu sakit pinggang and lenguh2 on malam 24/11/2008. then pagi 25/11/2006, keluar darah :O ... terus alert hubby and mak and then we went straight to Hospital Pantai. around pkul 9.00am, Dr Idris mai check and bgtau yg dah bukak 2cm, maybe awal pagi esok brsalin. then lepas tu dok lepak2 je la kat labor room tu...mkan2...sembang2 ngan mak. then pkul 4.00pm, Dr Idris mai lagi and check-baru bukak 3cm. "oh, ini takleh jadik nih. klau biar sampai pagi esok pon awak tak bersalin. saya akan induce and force contraction" ...

owww owww from 4.00pm sampai la pkul 1.00am, sakit nya sakit nya Allah je yg tahu. padan le yatt bgtau "ko kena expect sakit gila. takleh expect sakit sikit2". amik pethidin and gas (yg tak berkesan pon.hubby yg jadik ngantuk).pastu around pkul 1 lebih tu memang nak brsalin sangat2 dah, nurse check servix dah bukak 8-9cm. tapi yg gerramm nya dia suh pi tahan. "awak jangan push dulu. tahan dulu tahan. doktor blom sampai lagi." rasa cam nak tendang2 je nurse tu.

then, Dr Idris mai and tak sampai 10 minit, alhamduLillah selamat bersalin :) to everdearest hubby, thank you for endless support!

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

credit image to Ramadhan Mubarak

Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa di bulan Ramadhan yg mulia & penuh barakah. moga-moga Allah Taala menganugerahkan kita semua keampunan, ketenangan, rezeki serta kemantapan iman, insya-Allah.

from : Azran & Wanie ... and also our little one ;)

Usah mengeluh didik anak

interesting article to read... renung-renungkan dan selamat beramal !

credit image to http://www.captureeden.com

DALAM meniti kehidupan yang penuh mencabar hari ini, ada ibu bapa yang mengabaikan aspek penjagaan dan kasih sayang anak kerana terlalu sibuk mengejar kebendaan.

Renunglah panduan berikut untuk membentuk jati diri si anak serta kebahagiaan sekeluarga:

1. Mulakan hidup anak dengan nama panggilan yang baik. Nama panggilan yang kurang baik menyebabkan anak malu dan rasa rendah diri. (Nama panggilan yang baik digalakkan di dalam Islam).

2. Berikan anak pelukan setiap hari. Kajian menunjukkan anak yang dipeluk setiap hari mempunyai kekuatan akal atau daya fikir lebih kuat berbanding anak yang jarang dipeluk.

3. Jangan mengharapkan anak yang belum matang itu melakukan sesuatu perbuatan baik secara berterusan, mereka hanya kanak-kanak yang sedang berkembang. Perkembangan itu membuatkan mereka ingin mengalami setiap perkara termasuk melakukan kesilapan.

4. Apabila berhadapan dengan masalah kerja dan keluarga, pilihlah keluarga kerana mereka yang akan mencorak masa depan negara kelak.

5. Usah mengeluh dalam mendidik anak-anak. Keluhan akan membuatkan anak-anak rasa diri mereka sebagai beban.

6. Dengar cerita anak kerana cerita itu mungkin tidak akan dapat anda dengar lagi pada masa akan datang. Tunggu giliran anda untuk bercakap, ini mengajar anak mengenai giliran untuk bercakap.

7. Tenangkan anak setiap kali mereka memerlukannya. Tunjukkan kepada anak cara untuk menenangkan diri. Mereka akan menirunya.

8. Buatkan sedikit persediaan untuk anak-anak menyambut hari lahir mereka. Sediakan hadiah yang unik walaupun harganya murah. Keunikan akan membuatkan anak belajar menghargai.

9. Luangkan masa bersama anak di luar rumah, peganglah tangan anak apabila berjalan dengan mereka. Mereka tentu akan rasa pentingnya kehadiran mereka dalam kehidupan anda suami isteri.

10. Hargai permainan kesayangan anak, mereka juga pada masa sama akan menghargai barang kesayangan anda. Elakkan daripada membuang barang kesayangan mereka walaupun sudah rosak. Minta kebenaran mereka sebelum berbuat demikian.

11. Jangan biarkan anak-anak tidur tanpa ciuman selamat malam.

12. Jangan selalu membawa kerja pejabat ke rumah. Anak-anak akan belajar bahawa kerja pejabat selalunya lebih penting daripada keluarga.

13. Terima keadaan bahawa kadangkala anda bukanlah ibu bapa yang sempurna. Ini akan mengurangkan tekanan menjadi ibu bapa.

14. Pandang anak dengan pandangan kasih sayang. Ia akan membuatkan anak lebih yakin apabila berhadapan dengan persekitaran.

credit to Harian Metro.

bowling

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assalamualaikum :)

just would like to share few pixs of our Enterprise & Government Unit, Product Marketing family day @ bowling tournament at Cosmic Bowl, Mid Velly on 19/7/2008.




























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also ada pre-tournament... hubby practice with his friends @ Ampang Super Bowl, The Summit USJ on 13/7/2008.

makan

assalamualaikum.

mommy is so sleepy right now... zzzzz ... would like to take a nap sat...for this week mommy feel so tired especially during nite time ... plan nak lelap sekejap then boleh sampai 2-3 hours.

sayang you're 13 weeks already, mommy & papa feels so excited to see you move around (macam summersault pon ada) ... we went for check-up and Dr Idris did his normal scan on mommy's tummy then tadaaaa... we saw you moved around! papa was the most happiest person to see you at that moment darling.

now mommy has huge appetite.. huhu... asyik nak makan + makan + makan ... papa a bit penin with the situation and he cooks for mommy, darling! oh nice spaghetti and masak pindang abang! very nice try :) ... papa also worries bila tengok mommy's face every morning hehe muka org kelaparan! mommy will always say "cepat bangun abang! nak pi makan ! cepat la sampai !" hahaha... bila mommy sakit/pedih ulu hati sebab gastrik, then papa lagi worry...love you abang...

also thanks to Auntie Yati for dropping by ... well wish you all the best during your pregnancy period... mudah-mudahan semuanya selamat, insya-Allah...

okay, now nenek penang & uncle azrani come to visit us. nenek masak2 and bersihkan rumah hehe ;) thank you mak ! this sunday tok mi from kelate datang kl...

my eyes got mesmerized with the below cake from Autie Yati's blog... visit her blog Hot Stove for more...

Fresh fruit clan

A peacock today, a feather duster tomorrow - Tan Sri Dato' Dr. Ani bin Arope

assalamualaikum.

kenal tak Tan Sri Dato' Dr. Ani bin Arope ni? former TNB executive chairman from 1990~1996. oh ingat tak time total national blackout in 1996, baca excerpt from Jeff Oii website ... http://www.jeffooi.com/2006/06/ipps_will_ani_arope_talk.php

"On Aug 3, 1996, Peninsular Malaysia suffered a total power blackout for almost 14 hours. Tenaga Nasional Bhd, the public utility responsible for power generation, transmission and distribution, bore the brunt of the blame for the outage.

Tenaga got tremendous bashing from the government, the public and the business community. Tenaga, or TNB, was called "Total National Blackout" by many angry customers . "

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for me, he is very very wonderful person. we have rented his house for couple of years, yet he shows his humble good care to his tenants. he even told me he was terkilan not being able to attend my wedding, so he would like to meet me and my hubby (time tu my fiance) and invited us to his house. we met a knowledgeable (he earns phD) and down-to-earth Tan Sri.

okay, would like to share his thoughts...

"Even with a five figure salary today, you are going to be devalued overnight when you retire; a peacock today, a feather duster tomorrow! This is a tough scenario. Is it necessary to be so?" asks Tan Sri Dato' Dr. Ani Arope during his thought-provoking talk to Guthries' retirees recently.

Things look pretty glum. You are in the age bracket or have reached the mandatory retirement age. There is this feeling of anxiety, of resentment and rejection. Even with the five figure salary you are drawing per month, you are just able to get by. You claim to be miserable but still in comfort. Now the future prospects seemed bleak. You have heard of currency devaluation. Now this is going to happen to you. You are going to be devalued overnight. A peacock today, a feather duster tomorrow. Most of you cannot even remember telephone numbers, as there is no need to. Your faithful pal will track down anybody you wish to speak to, in any part of the world. Some of you over the years do not even know how to use the self-service at the gas stations, check in at an airline counter or how to pay bills, let alone complete your income tax returns. As a medical doctor said in some other context" you don't use it, you loose it ". Overnight these things are no more the expected and the routine. You are now mr. Nobody. This is a pretty tough scenario. Is it necessary to be so?

One of the phases that a retiree may have to go through after the initial resentment phase of retirement, is the feeling of rejection. When he is tired of coping with the anger that comes from his perceived rejection, he tries to reduce his pain by creating what i call emotional numbness. He withdraws form society. Accepts no invitations. Does not entertain visitors, he becomes very unsociable. By identifying these phases, we can intervene and eliminate the potential problems before they balloon into destructive patterns that threaten our post retirement lives. Continue to socialize, create new network of friends and maintain the old. Share with others your experiences. Touch other people's lives to make a positive difference in them.
If you accept that you are a has-been, then mentally, emotionally, physically, socially and spiritually you give up. Your super computer in your brain box starts to program for a shut down. Within 1,000 days, if you are on the metric system, and 3 years if you are non-metric, you exit. You have to get hold of yourself now and set up to reprogram for you to re-tyre yourself. You may not want to go onto the fast track again, but there are equally challenging avenues for you to play a role. You cannot just sit down waiting for something to happen. You must make things happen. This is the time to activate your networking. Some may not want to know you. Leave them alone. That is their prerogative. You cannot allow yourself to stagnate. Like the car in the garage. If you choose not to start it for a week, what happens to the battery? It goes flat. Get a move on.

Spiritual development
As solomon said, "as a man thinks in his heart, so is he". If you think you are beaten, you are beaten. If you think you can and will make it, you will make it. Sometimes you meet some pitfalls, immediately the word failure comes in. This is often times being re-enforced by your close members of your family. Be committed to what you set to do and do it. It is not a failure, but your success is just being delayed for the better. When things do not seemed to be right, this is the time to sit back and reflect and use your own spiritual power to communicate with the almighty to show you what went wrong so as you may take corrective action.

You have a direct link to the almighty, use it. Most of us, at some point in our lives, have been brought up on the diet of prayers and reading the holy book. But few of us know how to tap into this super energy source of power. When you are in commune with the almighty through prayers, you should be able to visualize what you are seeking for. Now it leaves you to energize the program you set up to do in order to actualize whatever you wanted. The 'prayerize', visualize, energize and Actualize procedure exerts a profound power force in the experience of the individual who has the wit to employ it.

In my life there are enough 'spiritual' experiences of employing this creative principle which has been responsible for seemingly incredible outcome for me, to guide me in my career and life path. You can go back and try this procedure for yourselves to actualize what you want. There is a passage in the qur'an that says that god helps those who help themselves. Prayers help us to visualize and energize what we seek from the almighty. This type of trying that has worked wonders must also involve the relaxed attitude towards effort when that is indicated. Sometimes we push ourselves too hard that it becomes stressful and without attaining the goals for which they have been put forth. Take a break. Time to review the physical side of our development.

Physical development
Many of us take too lightly the physical side of our being. This includes nutrition, what we eat, drink and smoke, and keeping ourselves fit and healthy. We are what we eat, drink and smoke. There is enough literature on this. What i want to emphasize here is that we have to be selective in what we eat and in moderation. Have your nasi lemak, gulai daging and your roti canai, but not everyday. For our sedentary type of work, we do not require more than 2,000 calories of food intake. You have to join your staff at the canteen to see some of the heavier set of staff eat. They have the full course plus their teh tarik and they complain of being overweight and develop symptoms of je [jantong expiring]. If they do not have this as yet, they complain that their sugar, cholesterol, and pressure levels are elevated. They wonder why.

Some on this diet, seemed fit. They play badminton, squash and do weight lifting [not body building] and collapse. To me they are fit but not healthy. Conversely some may be healthy but not fit. You need to have a combination of both, being fit and healthy. Some of the sports that we do are more anaerobic than aerobic. In anaerobic exercise, we do not use oxygen and consequently we maintain our weight, no matter how much workout we do. In the more aerobic sports, like walking or sports that involve a lot of deep breathing weight reduction is more pronounced.

Remember, we are not limited by our age; we are liberated by it. The most exciting news of all is that, like all patterns that give us pleasure, moderate exercise can become a positive addiction. Many of you may want to avoid exercise. You will be more powerfully drawn to it once you discover how pleasurable it is to work out properly. I bet you that if you exercise consistently for a period of time, you will form this positive addiction for a lifetime. Even if you got off track for a while, you'll always return to a consistent exercise regimen throughout your life. We all deserve the physical vitality that can transform the quality of our lives. Our physical destiny is intimately related to our mental, emotional, financial and relationship destinies. In fact, it will determine whether we have a destiny at all!

Mental development
Mental development must go on. Cultivate the reading habit. Our public libraries are seldom used. I surround my reclining chair with books and magazines and pick whatever reading material according to the mood that i am in. My interests range from comparative religions to geography, autobiography, battle epics from the crusades to the war in Kuwait and of course the flying magazines. Sometimes i listen to books on tape and wished i had their command of the language, whether it is in Bahasa (Malaysia), French, English or just rubbish.

Reading something of substance, something of value, something that is nurturing, something that teaches you new distinctions every day, is more important than eating. Read a minimum of thirty minutes a day. You may miss a meal, but don't miss your reading. By reading you are not limited to your own personal experiences as life references. You can borrow the references of other people. You may want to focus on those who had made it against all odds - Nelsen Mendella - who had succeeded and contributed and is impacting people's lives in a major way. Read the biographies of successful people and learn that regardless of their background or conditions, when they held on to their sense of certainty and consistently contributed, success eventually came their way.

The power of reading a great book is that you start thinking like the author. During those magical moments while you are immersed in reading "Papillon", you are Henri Charriere. I am attracted not so much on its sensational appeal as the autobiography of a convict, but rather on its rare quality as a tale of courage, endurance and man's unquenchable thirst for freedom; the biography of Fred Meijer who started a chain of general stores in the us, you cannot but be impressed by what he said, "live your life so you can look in a mirror and be proud of what you see".

You start to think like they think, feel like they feel, and use imagination as they would. Their references become your own, and you carry these with you long after you've turned the last page. You constantly need to expand your references.
Just to digress a little, many have asked me why i took up flying. Flying gives me a chance to learn something new that i have never been exposed to before. I wanted to learn how to handle this mechanical monstrosity and make it respond to my commands. Moreover i had to learn subjects that have never been part of my life- subjects like aviation law, general aeronautics, radio telephony, navigation and meteorology. Let me emphasize here flying is not important. What matters is the mental, physical, emotional, social and spiritual coordination that it provides. Other sporting avenues might provide the same challenges. Find your sporting niche and do it with passion and enthusiasm.

Emotional development
In our daily lives and more so when we are about to have a late life career change, we need to take conscious control of our oscillating emotions and consciously and deliberately shape our lives. There is no success without emotional success. Emotional stability starts at home. If there is tension in the house, which there will sometimes be, you will have to sort this out with your partner. A veteran of 45 years married to the same person, to maintain your sanity, you have to make your relationship one of the highest priorities in your life; otherwise you will be taking a back seat to any or all of the other things that are happening in the work place.

Sometimes emotional conflicts come from your own makings with your other family members, your own children. You want to mould them in your own expectations. Being the authoritarian father that you are, you give them no choice but an ultimatum. Your love for them becomes conditional to their submitting to your fancies. We forget that our children were born with their own talents and interests. Our responsibility is to prepare them to face the world when we are no more around. Give them the tools to meet these challenges. After that let them express their talents and interests to the fullest within the accepted norms of society. There shall be no withholding of our love for them. In this way we create an environment of love and respect for each other and minimize emotional conflicts. To quote Antonio Porchia, "in a full heart there is room for everything, and in an empty heart there is room for nothing". You are the source of all your emotions. Nothing, and no one, can change how you feel, except yourself. If you find yourself in reaction to anything, you and only you, can change the situation.

In everyday life, who decides whether you shall be happy or unhappy? It is you, and nobody else. You get up in the morning, you have a choice - whether to be happy or unhappy. The choice is yours. When i was a kid, my grandmother was very particular how we started our day. We were chided not to start the day with a long face. Now this made sense. If you programmed yourself saying that "it's going to be a tough day today" the first thing in the morning, what else do you expect the day to be? I recall reading somewhere that Abraham Lincoln said that people were just about as happy as they made up their minds to be. You can be unhappy if you chose to be. It is the easiest thing to accomplish. Go round telling yourself that things are not going well, that nothing is satisfactory, and you can bet your last ringgit of being unhappy. But say to yourself, "things are going well. Life is good. I choose happiness," and you can be quite sure of having your choice.


Conclusion

Many of us make life unnecessarily difficult for ourselves and this has a snowballing effect as it affects others as well. We need to stop feeling resentful and rejected and get peaceful, if we are to have power to live effectively. We do not realize how accelerated the rate of our lives have become, or the speed at which we have driven ourselves. Many of us are destroying our physical bodies by this pace. What is even more tragic, we are tearing our minds and souls to shreds as well. Retirement or a late career change could be the opportunity of our first step to reduce the rate of our pace or at least the tempo of our life style, and appreciate this wonderful gift of life. We could continue to contribute to society in many other ways and ask the almighty god to make use of us until we are completely used up. Those who have retired or about to and are having difficulties coping with this new situation, need to have an attitudinal change. They have to take this as a blessing for giving them a new lease of life, thus enabling them to re-tyre themselves for their new role.

Lastly we have to remember we are mere actors acting out our roles on this world stage. In acting out our roles, we make our entrances and at the appropriate time make our exits. Commit yourselves to acting out your roles in life with gusto and deserving success and you will find a reward you have not bargained for - a crowning glory of a full life well lived.

From http://tuanswants.blogspot.com

another one week MC & new post

assalamualaikum...

+ another one week MC +

oh darling, mommy was given another one week MC by Dr Idris until 18/4/2008. he really wanted mommy to be in healthy condition before masuk ofis balik.

okay, nenek penang and uncle azrani mai umah temankan mommy. at least papa boleh rehat sat utk uruskn rumah. nenek masak, kemas rumah, lipat baju, kemas dapur heheh... nanti baby kena selalu balik penang ye, nenek tak sabar nak tengok baby. this is the first cucu and mommy can feel nenek's excitement.

baby now is 9 weeks. alhamduLillah, mommy kurang rasa loya and tak penat cam few weeks ago. sekarang kuat makan. papa dah risau haha... dia selalu cakap, baby baru beberapa cm... tapi perut mommy macam 4 bulan... haha... papa tau yg mommy asyik melantak...

baru sekarang mommy tau yg being a mother is not easy. every single moment akan ada a little worry over baby's condition.

mommy hanya mohon satu : moga segala-galanya selamat.


+ new post +

alhamduLillah, after implementation of new structure commenced 1st April 2008, i am being assigned with new post ... Assistant Manager of Embassy... incharge any request (voice, data, internet) from Sales Unit, particularly Embassies.

seronok + syukur... moga-moga dapat buat kerja se ikhlas mungkin dalam unit baru ni.

wassalam.